POEMS : 2021

2021-01-04

Put down the crutches

Pick up the hammer.

Goto work on yourself

And elevate beyond the illusion of neutrality

Did somebody get you?

Did somebody sneak past the holes of need in your armor

Did life disillusion you just enough

To be taken advantage of by a serpent

An agent of the devil?

Take it as a compliment

And drop the crutches you picked up along the way.

Pick up the hammer.

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2021-01-06

Are you drawing pictures in water

To resonate with wounds

And back stab dreams

Drawing in water

The pictures disappear in the waves

Just like the days

And then the years

But behind everything is a secret blessing

A pathway to plunge you into the depths

Beyond the faded pictures

Of your nightmares

I love you

I’m sorry

Please forgive me

Thank you

Find yourself surrounded by the roots of forgiveness

And throw your heart into the sun

And rejoice

When faith is hard to come by

Allow it to push you deeper

And stop drawing pictures in water.

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2021-01-11

P.S. Go Browns!

That thing that happens

When you lose control

Stand up to fast

And get dizzy but it’s a state beyond dizzy

It’s a state in where you lose control

Where suddenly death is right next door

A whisper away

Because you almost black out and don’t think you can stand

But not quite

Cause you stay up and recalibrate and hit your equilibrium again

And at most

If someone’s around

You’ll say

I just got dizzy

Or I felt weird just now

Your Friend will say

Are you ok?

And you’ll say

Yeah I think so

Just got dizzy I guess?

and then you’ll go on with your day

And your life

And you’ll forget about that space.

That space of absolutely no control

Death’s sneak preview

Where something else takes over

And your identity sweeps across the ocean and into the wind.

And outer space is a cookie jar falling off the shelf

And humanity

Will just have to figure it out

Without you.

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Living the dream?

Or living a nightmare trying to make it a dream?

Have you descended into obsolete and destructive patterns

As a result of dealing with the trauma of our world collapsing?

Fear is the engine of addiction

And that engine is revving up

Take a breath

Forgive yourself

Tomorrow is a new day

And the chaos of the world need not take you down with it.

At least not without a fight.

Keep swinging!

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2021-01-13

Beggars on the streets of mercy

Be the witness of your mind

And free yourself from its turmoil

Stop being a beggar on the streets of mercy

But the one he sees the movement from above

And knows you are not down there

With hands reaching out

In the functions of need

But rather the

love inside

Giving it all it’s motion.

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2021-01-14

You can’t hang out in your rage towards others

You can’t thrive in a cloud of resentment and division

The feeling of strength you get from judgement and condemnation is poisonous

And will turn on you like a snake in the dark

Love is the power and the source

And the force that will turn ghosts into flesh

And flesh into ghosts

Guide your heart to the light

And let the true strength of humility

Elevate you above fear and the darkness and death that rides with it.

Come with love or don’t come at all

Challenge yourself to rise above it all

There is infinite space beyond the threshold of gratitude

Clean the windows of your eyes and

Adjust your attitude

Unite for we are one

And until we understand that

We are lost.

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2021-01-16

The shadow dancers

We who live amongst beasts

We who have trouble loving ourselves

We who vandalize our dreams

And try to set wind on fire

We who beg to be understood

While never understanding ourselves

We who lose chances

In the chaos of second glances

We who dance with shadows

It takes the will of heroes

To overcome

When your blankets no longer keep you warm

When you sense the storm

And try to find balance on a high wire

Prayer the only privilege

For people like you and me

The shadow dancers.

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2021-01-19

Night shots messed up my night run

Try to remember your future

Try to sit in the lap of love and wish yourself goodnight.

We

All the dreamers

Creating our life

And we all the dreamers

Creating our light

We who have been whiplashed by violence

In the endlessly needing night

Try to remember your future

With ecstasy’s sight

Then say I love you

And wish yourself goodnight

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2021-01-20

Here’s to healing.

Here’s to coming together as one.

Here’s to freedom and opportunity for all.

One nation under the great I Am.

The thread of consciousness that is unchanging.

Undying.

The part of us that is one and the same eternally.

Here’s to evolving into the next chapter without fear and all the hope we can muster.

God bless.

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2020-01-23

The Final Blossom

Strength is a heart that is full of trust

Faith is the anchor of power

Hope the blueprint of courage

Allow your mistakes

To center you in love immortal

And then eternity is yours

To make laughter

The final blossom

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You are in the future

Now

Or is it

Now?

No it’s

Now.

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2021-01-26

Man is a complex beast

The subconscious ocean

Full of demons and light

To gods dancing with snakes (that bite)

In the flames of shadows crashing

The layers of who we are

Crescendoing identities

The good and the bad

Playing hopscotch in the rain

Did you miss your train?

Or are you still trying to figure out which one to get on?

Some go backwards

Some don’t go at all

But if your spinning your wheels

And afraid to meet the conductor

Take comfort in knowing

You’re not alone.

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2021-01-27

Watching the market like...

Life has those holy shit moments

And those holy shift moments

Watching the markets tank

Head and shoulders patterns

And cities shaking

In the dust of collapsing numbers.

Sky lines on red charts

Breathing in the sigh of belief

Just like in the market (in life)

We need levels of support.

When the bulls turn to bears

And fight with the shadow people

(How many suffer this dream alone?)

Sometimes you sit back and watch the charts

Follow your nightmare into reality

But then you remember

It’s all an illusion

All in your head

The ghosted bulls running over the hill,

As the bears keep stacking

The chaos machines.

There’s nothing you can keep anyway.

It’s all just a reminder

To become the witness

And establish good credit

In the currency of the eternal

Hold your spirit

And never short on love.

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2021-01-28

Talk about occupy

Wall Street

The conspirators have a sense of humor

And lay cards down

Like clues in a game of

Oh mercy. Or chance. or bizarre tarot cards.

Game stop

Or stop the game. Is that an accident?

AMC

Classic movies

Stories from a time

You could buck the disparity of the system

Blackberry?

Did that one sky rocket as well?

When’s the last time you busted out your blackberry? Lol.

The little guys snuffed in the pandemic

As Amazon sky rockets

It’s already unfair advantage

To the moon and beyond.

(No doubt that was just an accident)

Bed bath and beyond

Go to bed

Take a bath

We live in the beyond

Or a comic book

Penned by a demon with a wicked sense of humor.

Game stop.

Did they really get shut down for hate speech?

Or was that just a troll?

If you didn’t know better

You might think the super rich

Are getting shaky

With the world burning down, and

Anyway you look at it

Our entertainment dollars

Are paid for -

Then again maybe nothing is true

And everything is permitted

Silent in a bell jar

The loose coins are dancing.

Robinhood banning the trading of Reddit stocks (oh the irony) do they not know the nature of their namesake?

And an exodus into crypto.

Doge coin to the moon?

And how is removing stocks not manipulation?

The poor lost 3 and a half trillion

The rich made 4 over the the course of the pandemic so far.

The little guys trying to turn the tables

As Robinhood is turning in his grave.

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2021-01-29

Something remains untouched.

When’s things breakdown

There’s an opportunity for reinvention.

And maybe more than just an opportunity

But rather a calling

From the gutter to adjust

To stand out

To speak up more

Why stay silent in the playground of the absurd?

Your refuge is in the I Am

Your identity is an illusion

So it’s trials and tribulations are an illusion as well

When things breakdown

Something remains untouched

Go there.

The mind will resist

The shadows will call you a fool

But that eternal stride

That runs along side the same

buzz of consciousness...

Identify with that

Because there is where liberation

Hides like a thief who stole the keys to life.

You don’t need effort to be what you really are

What you need is to let go of effort

And rejoice like a Tramp with a bottle of mad dog

Bark at the moon

Take a rocket to your essence

And feel the waves of your freedom

Crash around the dream of who you thought you were.

Something remains untouched

Go there.

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2021-02-04

Cute money

Doge is more than a coin

More than a meme

More than crypto

Doge is a dream still accessible to all

With rocket blasters from Tony Stark

Listen to the livestreams

Of the people lined to watch its assent to a dime.

A cute community

Of people discovering

That they can reach into their futures

And pick flowers

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2021-03-28

Painting

Is the ultimate dance of forgiveness

Cause you have to keep forgiving

Yourself for fucking the whole

Thing up.

And embrace the fuck up

To allow the thing to go someplace deeper.

As in life

In painting

We are born

In the fuck ups.

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2021-03-31

Beware the merchants of shame

It’s born to isolate you

It’s born to keep you small and prevent your evolution

It doesn’t come from the most high

It comes from the fallen

Beware the merchants of shame

The porn industry

The food and drug industry

The entertainment programming

The news.

Beware the merchants of shame

Invested in your demoralization

For they can’t profit from your empowerment

They can’t trick you in that space

Beware the merchants of shame.

And turn your focus to the sun

To where you originate from

A place where you don’t ever need to run

Turn your focus to the sun

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But the merchants of shame aren’t just those big Goliaths

They can also be a suggestion from friend

A question or a concern

When you finally break from old shackles

Whispers in the wind

Where you can here your name

Careful too

Of those merchants of shame.

Turn your focus to the sun

Not to the past

Or what you’ve done

In God’s eyes your forgiven if you ask

Careful of the ones

Who make fun of that task.

Beware of the merchants of shame.

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2021-04-05

Ice Constellations And Exploding Butterflies

Inside of you

Is an exploding butterfly

Caught on the high wind

Of ecstasy

In a dream you forgot to have

Back when you were a cowboy

Or cowgirl

In the days before Christ

Riding on a starship

From a civilization

More advanced than this one.

Building the simulation

On motorized dinosaurs

When every sky was red

And every night was purple and

orange.

We used to be born with wings

But those got clipped

In the time of the ice constellations

When the plane of our existence

Became more about survival

Than evolving our spirit.

So the butterfly went within

And built itself

A room for wings

In the house of your dreams.

In your chest a butterfly is exploding

Though it may be slow going

Inside there is an eternal knowing

That you are glowing

From a world beyond this one.

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2021-04-13

Destiny Over History

Destiny so much more than history

Focus on your destiny

Nevermind your history

Don’t let what you’ve been through

Define you

You are forgiven

You are redeemed

You are born new

Into every moment

As every moment

Is born new into you.

The accuser

The enemy

El Diablo

Lucifer

Satan

Wants you to stand accused

In a sea of regret

With a head full of

It’s too late

And a shame soaked heart

He wants you to believe

That that

Is a righteous way to feel

Down on yourself

Focusing on the blunders of the past

And believing

You can never overcome them

But none of that is true

For the price

Of confession

For the price

Of repentance

For the price

Of surrender

You are born a new

Into the fullness

Of this moment now

Into the reality

Of the here and now

A pure being

A pure joy in the eyes of God

A being of a unlimited potential

A being of light

A light in the darkness

A soldier in Gods army

Not defined by your mistakes

But rather built by them

To be humbled

To be fierce

To be grateful

That God himself

Died for your sins

That he thought the opportunity

Of your freedom

And your potential

Was worthy

Of that level of sacrifice.

That you are

That worthy

That you are

So worthy

That you are

So important

That you are

Totally redeemed

That you are

Completely forgiven

That you are

A star exploding

Into the future of salvation

Turning darkness into dust

And showing the world

The God you trust.

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